I made some great friend and lost a few along the way too. I
had my heart broken and my heart mended beyond my wildest dream. I went to
weddings and celebrated numerous engagements with those people that I love so
dearly. I helped friends through their heartbreaks and they held me through
mine. I celebrated great achievements of my own and of my friends and felt
defeated at times.
I ran and ran even when I wanted to quit. I traveled to new
places and made return trips to a few favorites. I was a good friend, I was a bad friend. I
cried, I laughed, I hated strongly disliked and
let go of some emotions. I drew close to God, ran from him and nestled in the
comfort of his arms. I watched from a distance and partook in a few things
too.
I quit a job without having another and was given the
opportunity to begin working in a field I have a passion about. I made terrible
decisions, good decisions and some of the best decisions of my life. I took risks, got outside of my comfort zone
and didn't care what other people thought.
I found that some friends whom I considered regular friends would end up
being best friends and found that some I considered great friends weren’t the people
I thought they were. I learned, I failed and I exceeded expectations.
I was challenged physically, emotionally and
professionally. I gave into temptations
and resisted some too. I found new
hobbies, new adventures and new passions.
I read, I wrote, I rewrote and I reread.
I put myself in a lot of uncomfortable positions, grew from those and
stayed in my comfort zone for others. I
was scared, I was happy, I was nervous, I was ecstatic, I was vulnerable, I was
disappointed, I was overwhelmed, I was down on myself and I was triumphant.
I finally figured out what “when you know, you just know”
means and I understand why other people can’t explain it. I waited patiently
and impatiently. I had my day made and hopefully made someone’s day as well. I
trusted myself and trusted others (some to a fault). I made mistakes, but most
importantly I learned from those mistakes. I kept up walls and let some tear
those down.
I watched friends graduate from college while others just
got started. I had first dates, last dates, and the best dates of my life. I celebrated the birth of babies, big birthdays
for others and a “milestone” birthday of my own. I experienced the highs of pet
owning loving, lows of pet loving and the scariest
sides of pet loving. I went to the beach, to the “Big Apple”, to Boston, to
Nassau, to Cancun and more! I took pictures and most importantly made memories.
I drank, I ate and I was merry. I had financial success and
financial failure hardship. I learned to budget, I
saved and I spent. I cruised, I flew, I drove and I walked. I laughed until I cried and cried until I
laughed. I had great times, good times, bad times and terrible times. I
experienced blessings and blessings in disguise. I loved and let others love
me.
I had a full year, thousands of memories and hundreds of
experiences, but this year each month brought me something new, each day
brought me a little further along in my journey of life. Each experience molded me into the person I
am and the person I will continue to become. It’s been a year to say the least,
but it was a year worth having, a year that taught me I do not always know best
and sometimes it is best to just trust God and let him lead me to where I
should go.
I know 2013 will be a good year and I’m excited to take on
the highs and the lows, this time with better perspective, a stronger heart and
an attitude I didn’t have last year.
