Have you ever thought about what it would be like to go back to a past experience? Would you go back to a time and change something? Would you go back just to relive a moment? Would it be a vacation, a memory, a decision?
I think about this all the time. If I was given the chance, what point in my life would I want to relive or change? Would I go back to the last time I saw that person who is no longer in my life? Would I not date that guy? Would I not tell that lie? Would I keep doing gymnastics, or playing softball or singing?
As I think about it, I really don't think I would go back and alter anything, mostly because I like the person I am today. I wouldn't remove any of the people I've dated or been friends with. I probably wouldn't alter anything major. (I would probably have listened to my Mom though and kept singing, I do miss that part of my life). Despite some of the bad decision, heartbreaks, laughs, cries, lost friendships etc, I don't want to go back. I am the person I am now because of those experiences.
There are times in my life I would love to relive though (not relive to change, but relive to just relive). I would love to relive a moment with my grandfather before he was sick and passed. I would love to revisit the first time I fell in love and remember how great it felt. I would love to revisit JazzFest (a showchoir festival) from high school. I would love to go back and have another daddy-daughter date night and dance to YMCA with my Daddy and sister. I would love to go back to the day Mom and I were in New York, where we really started getting close. I would love to go back to the day I got my sweet Maggie and hold that precious angel when she was small ( I still love her just as much as an adult, she just isnt as easy to hold.) I would love to go back to a time, any time, that I was a child, so carefree. See, there are a million things I want to go back to, but nothing I want to change.
What times in your life would you revisit? Are you happy the way your life has turned out or would you change something? Would you risk giving up what you have now to go back and change a moment in time? And if you do not want to change it, wouldn't it be great just to relive it sometimes?
Our lives are the way they are now because of the things we have experienced, the decisions we have made. So, remember that next time you are having a bad day, or having a good one. All the hardship and greatness has made you who you are.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
Life IS good
Again with the lag in my blog, I should really make this a calendar event so I am sure to update this little baby.
Let's start by saying life is good. Despite the fact that things aren't exactly going my way all the time, life is good and I am fortunate to have the things I have, have the people in my life that I have, and do the things I get to do. I have to constantly remind myself on days where I can’t see anything going right, that I have a great life and all these little bumps in the road are just that, bumps in the road.
Over the past 2 weeks I have been to Auburn twice, gotta love that place. Once to drop off the pup with her grandparents and once to pick up the pup/go to the Auburn game. I also went to Colorado which is AMAZING. Such a pretty state. I will return when the snow is covering the mountains for sure, it is absolutely gorgeous. It actually made me want to jump on a bike or throw on my tennis shoes and take a long walk... It's just too bad I was there for work and my time was pretty much taken over.
I am unofficially/officially putting myself on a diet/work out regime. This is not a joke. I have to train for my 60 mile bike ride in March (the most I have ridden on a bike at one time in 10 years is 6 miles). This could be a long 6 months. I need to work on my ability to run longer than my usual mile (yes I know, pathetic). I need someone to help me get through that whole my body is shutting down, I can't breathe, my legs hurt, ouch a cramp phase. Apparently there is this magical place where your body gets used to running and it doesn't hurt nearly as bad, for now I will call this place NeverNeverLand because I do not believe it exists.
In the coming weeks, I may actually spend some time in Atlanta, or maybe not. I want to get back to Birmingham soon and see my girls. Maybe next weekend??? Girls???
I have begun to mentally prepare myself for what could be a very long and very ugly (hopefully not) football October. My Auburn boys may surprise me, but right now, I'm a little concerned and therefore am just prepping myself for a hard couple of weeks. While Arkansas, Florida, LSU and Ole Miss would really bug me (I don't think we will be losing to Ole Miss btw) the last team I want to lose to is South Carolina, seeing as I know lots of Gamecocks who may find it entertaining to rub a loss in my face. I may or may not have made a comment or two last season regarding a comeback on the Plains, I plead the 5th. Either way, I am wearing my Auburn gear with pride, I will smile knowing that we will put forth a heck of a fight and will learn a little more each week. A tiger forever whether we win or lose.
So that's my life. Without a plan for this coming weekend I'm feeling a bit on edge, but I can always go to Auburn and help my sister ring in her 22nd birthday. Definitely an option I am considering. We will see. In the meantime, I leave you with a smile and a promise to try and not make this lag between blogs any longer.
Let's start by saying life is good. Despite the fact that things aren't exactly going my way all the time, life is good and I am fortunate to have the things I have, have the people in my life that I have, and do the things I get to do. I have to constantly remind myself on days where I can’t see anything going right, that I have a great life and all these little bumps in the road are just that, bumps in the road.
Over the past 2 weeks I have been to Auburn twice, gotta love that place. Once to drop off the pup with her grandparents and once to pick up the pup/go to the Auburn game. I also went to Colorado which is AMAZING. Such a pretty state. I will return when the snow is covering the mountains for sure, it is absolutely gorgeous. It actually made me want to jump on a bike or throw on my tennis shoes and take a long walk... It's just too bad I was there for work and my time was pretty much taken over.
I am unofficially/officially putting myself on a diet/work out regime. This is not a joke. I have to train for my 60 mile bike ride in March (the most I have ridden on a bike at one time in 10 years is 6 miles). This could be a long 6 months. I need to work on my ability to run longer than my usual mile (yes I know, pathetic). I need someone to help me get through that whole my body is shutting down, I can't breathe, my legs hurt, ouch a cramp phase. Apparently there is this magical place where your body gets used to running and it doesn't hurt nearly as bad, for now I will call this place NeverNeverLand because I do not believe it exists.
In the coming weeks, I may actually spend some time in Atlanta, or maybe not. I want to get back to Birmingham soon and see my girls. Maybe next weekend??? Girls???
I have begun to mentally prepare myself for what could be a very long and very ugly (hopefully not) football October. My Auburn boys may surprise me, but right now, I'm a little concerned and therefore am just prepping myself for a hard couple of weeks. While Arkansas, Florida, LSU and Ole Miss would really bug me (I don't think we will be losing to Ole Miss btw) the last team I want to lose to is South Carolina, seeing as I know lots of Gamecocks who may find it entertaining to rub a loss in my face. I may or may not have made a comment or two last season regarding a comeback on the Plains, I plead the 5th. Either way, I am wearing my Auburn gear with pride, I will smile knowing that we will put forth a heck of a fight and will learn a little more each week. A tiger forever whether we win or lose.
So that's my life. Without a plan for this coming weekend I'm feeling a bit on edge, but I can always go to Auburn and help my sister ring in her 22nd birthday. Definitely an option I am considering. We will see. In the meantime, I leave you with a smile and a promise to try and not make this lag between blogs any longer.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Week of Vacay... sort of
It's been way too long since I updated this blog so I have lots to say.
Let’s start with the kick off of Auburn's football season. Mom and I got to go to the Auburn vs. Utah State game together. Apparently we forgot what it was like to be an Auburn fan, because we left when we were sure Auburn wasn't going to pull it off. Stupid us. Riding the transit back to our car we realized our mistake as one of the guys on the bus started listening to his radio. Let’s just say, I now remember that it is not over until the last second.
I spent the rest of the weekend with friends and family in Auburn and at the lake, which was an amazing break from life. Labor Day's rain made the day suck so no lake, but just some good clean fun watching Shrek and enjoying the company I had.
Tuesday (when I was supposed to be back at work), I took my car into the shop in AU. I was working from home/Auburn that day so I did some work while lounging around with the pups. My car ended up not getting fixed that day, so I got to stay in Auburn for another day. Again I worked from home and enjoyed being away from the office/drama/bs.
Thursday brought me to the beach for my best bud's sister's bachelorette bash. Can I tell you how much I love the beach? It just takes all your cares away. It is definitely my happy place. Considering making a move there one day, would love to live near the beautiful beaches of the gulf. One day, I will.
The bachelorette party was a success, in many ways and the bride seemed to enjoy herself. Sunday we packed up the leave and immediately I got sad. While getting to the beach is such a happy moment, leaving the beach is quite possibly the saddest day ever. I was so tired that I couldn’t make the additional 2 hour drive to Atlanta so I spent another night in Auburn.
Now I’m back in Atlanta, wishing I was anywhere else. I think I've realized that Atlanta is not the place for me. Yes I like a lot of it, and yes I love most of the people I know or have met here, but right now I just don’t love it. Perhaps it’s my frustrations with work, maybe it's just me being restless. I have lots of thinking and praying and learning to do, but it's about time for me to try something else. It's an exciting, scary road I'm on, but I'm so excited to see where I will end up.
Let’s start with the kick off of Auburn's football season. Mom and I got to go to the Auburn vs. Utah State game together. Apparently we forgot what it was like to be an Auburn fan, because we left when we were sure Auburn wasn't going to pull it off. Stupid us. Riding the transit back to our car we realized our mistake as one of the guys on the bus started listening to his radio. Let’s just say, I now remember that it is not over until the last second.
I spent the rest of the weekend with friends and family in Auburn and at the lake, which was an amazing break from life. Labor Day's rain made the day suck so no lake, but just some good clean fun watching Shrek and enjoying the company I had.
Tuesday (when I was supposed to be back at work), I took my car into the shop in AU. I was working from home/Auburn that day so I did some work while lounging around with the pups. My car ended up not getting fixed that day, so I got to stay in Auburn for another day. Again I worked from home and enjoyed being away from the office/drama/bs.
Thursday brought me to the beach for my best bud's sister's bachelorette bash. Can I tell you how much I love the beach? It just takes all your cares away. It is definitely my happy place. Considering making a move there one day, would love to live near the beautiful beaches of the gulf. One day, I will.
The bachelorette party was a success, in many ways and the bride seemed to enjoy herself. Sunday we packed up the leave and immediately I got sad. While getting to the beach is such a happy moment, leaving the beach is quite possibly the saddest day ever. I was so tired that I couldn’t make the additional 2 hour drive to Atlanta so I spent another night in Auburn.
Now I’m back in Atlanta, wishing I was anywhere else. I think I've realized that Atlanta is not the place for me. Yes I like a lot of it, and yes I love most of the people I know or have met here, but right now I just don’t love it. Perhaps it’s my frustrations with work, maybe it's just me being restless. I have lots of thinking and praying and learning to do, but it's about time for me to try something else. It's an exciting, scary road I'm on, but I'm so excited to see where I will end up.
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